so i go to work like i normally do,

and guess what,

there's nothing for me to do.

apparently the time i've spent online is more than work.

and oh.. you think that's great huh?

well, guess what..

i'm bored.

so bored that i keep rambling stuff out just to satisfy the emptiness of my mind at this moment.

wiki is not helping,

my books are not as satisfying anymore,

i'm still waiting for someone to borrow me eclipse and breaking dawn thou,

but i don't think it'll help.

SHUT UP!

don't you even dare to say i'm becoming emo.

just insanely weird would do.

and if that's not enough, my imaginations are running wild.

you've no idea what going through my mind right now do you?

well duh..

if you do you'll be a stinking rich millionaire,

or billionaire,

or whatever-aire..

as if i care.. pfft.

hey it rhymes! pfft. 

if you're guessing ponies and unicorn and 1000-coloured rainbow,

with cakes and lollipop growing out of trees,

and milk chocolate river from willy wonka.. wree..

you're so totally wrong.

if you're guessing mutated frogs and 8-legged dogs and green colored kittens,

and seeing a man being hit by a car with his guts spilling out,

his blood splattered on your face,

and still be able to laugh about it,

well, you need to see a doctor or go watch more ben 10.

this is not healthy,

i'm becoming weird.

not that i don't mind,

just that it's not me, or is it?

well, you be the judge.

since people of this world love to criticize anyway.

oh come on, don't pretend now.

even if you don't say it out loud, you thinking it in your heart.

yes, this is weird.

this is not me.

i hate this.

i guess having too much time to think is driving me insane.

it's different from doing math or add math or science.

where you just have to focus on it and using your knowledgeable brain to create more theory.

Ha! here. a noble prize for you. happy now?

xoxo

*don't you ever wish you didn't say i was predictable?*

of things to do after SPM.

Goodbye SPM.
Goodbye secondary school.
Goodbye prefect duties.
Goodbye homework.
Goodbye PHYSIC!

and Hello Freedom!

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Yes, SPM is finally over. I still cannot believe that last paper was such a headache, but still it's over. I'm going to miss those days where I would wake up 5.15a.m every morning and do my usual routine; click the 'snooze' button, wake up after 5 mins, brush my teeth and wash my face, wear my school uniform, tie my hair and quickly stuff my bag with the day's schedule, go downstairs, eat my half-boiled egg and toast [yes, I have the same breakfast every morning] and leave for school before 6a.m.

The days where my dad would just drop me off at the bus stop, the times I would have to walk to school. Climbing up the stairs of the overhead bridge, and just looking at the moon in the early morning, mesmerize by it's natural beauty. In class, I would either talk to Jesse, do my overdue homework or sleep. Then it's off to prefect duties, which by every passing day became more of a burden. Don't even make me start on reccess duties, the boys seriously doesn't know how to keep things neat. Classes are as usual, the same old routine, either I'll listen attentively or sleep. Yes, don't be surprised, I always do get away by sleeping in class, love the teachers sometimes.

My last day of school, my last time wearing an All Saints uniform, my last time taking it off, it's like repeating the same thing as I did to my previous school. 'The last' is well, saddening and yet so cliche. So many times I wish for this moment of freedom. Now that it really is here, I wonder what lies ahead of me. I mean I still haven't made up my mind about where and what I should study. Is it just me, or it really is hard to make that decission? So much opportunities in front of me, which road will I pick? What does God want me to do? My parents said they're fine with me doing anything I want, but now and then, they'll be hinting me about A levels and going for medical studies. Pfft.. I mean seriously, do they even have the money to let me study medicine? heh..

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1. scream "SPM is over"! [1/12]
2. sleep one whole day [2/12]
3. sell my books [5/1]
4. go PROM~ [6/12]
5. eat yogurberry, vedablu, secret recipe's cake [mmm.. raspberry cheesecake..] [28/11]
6. go for movie marathon [watched twilight, madagascar 2 and bolt, now craving for wild child!] [27 n' 28/11, 5/12]
7. shop for christmas [20-21/12]
8. learn bowling [thanx matthew!] [1/12] and badminton
9. go to the beach
10. fold 1000 stars
11. clean up my room... [ngeh >.<] [2/1]
12. update my dear bloggie~ [1/12]
13. eat more ice-cream [especially raspberry ice-cream..] [4/12]
14. starbucks- my occasional dose of cafe mocha
15. play FLOORBALL!!! [30/11]
16. jog for more than an hour per week
17. spend Vern and Apple makan
18. pull Daniel off his bed [ada la tu..]
19. kidnap Cassie [always make the impossible, possible..] [23/12]
20. disassemble Ridge's bike
21. grow taller! *prays*
22. scream "SPM is over" again [2/12]
23. send in my application form to college
24. write an e-mail to Hikaru
25. prepare for national service..
26. go Class Dinner~ [1/12]
27. eat Japanesse food [27/11]


[thanx vern! love u!!! <3]

28. eat Korean food
29. go TIMES warehouse clearence sale.. [27/11]
30. finish reading my Sherlock Holmes novel
31. learn a musical instrument [in the process..]
32. conquer my fears. [30/12]
33. FLOORBALL TOURNAMENT! [13/12]
34. go for driving lessons [pestering my dad for it now..] [28/12]
35. make a deal with mom and dad [done. RM40 for each A I get in SPM] [30/11]
36. watch very addictive korean drama for a whole day
37. do the laundry [for once la..] [8/12]
38. listen to all the songs in my playlist
39. watch LOTR
40. buy mom something realy good for christmas
41. remind Vincent for the free meal he promised
42. give Ben a bath [my doggie XD]
43. learn to play pool
44. beat Daniel in 'Daytona' [that day will come, just you wait...]
45. ask dad for new mp3 player [or ask my brother to buy me a new one since he lost it in the 1st place]
46. donate my old clothes
47. tutor someone
48. draw/paint/sketch something
49. learn to do handstand
50. make sure i did all the above before i go for national service..

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finally updated,

xoxo